Two Haiku, Plus Two (Jacob Talks to God)

Today I hate you
for reasons unclear to me
and unfair to you

I hate the sound of your voice
I hate the sight of your face
I hate the way you're right
I hate the way you love me even when I hate you

I hate the words that you speak
I hate your understanding
I hate how you call me
I hate the tender strength with which you keep loving me

I don't understand
how you love someone like me
and so...I love you.